超挫败的一天。。。

今天一大清早起床， 煮了一锅粥，吃的非常开心，以为会有美好的一天。
但是怎么知道会是这样的一天

一进到课室才知道有考试，什么都没有准备的情况去考试，靠得不知所措
过后又有实验的考试，不知为什么好像什么都做错

我觉得我真的很笨很笨很笨，笨死了
笨的比猪还要笨
yoii，你可不可以不要这么笨啊？？

我真是一个笨蛋！！

有时候， 我觉得自己好笨好笨
一直被同样一个人一件事给伤害着
同样的人伤害了我一次又一次
我却还一直期待着他会有所改变
变得在乎我一点
但结论是，他没变，一点也没变
依然对我不要不紧

什么时候我可以再也不在乎他呢？？

one month in UTAR

it has been already one month plus i am in utar
at first i was so sad
i wanted to go home whenever im bored
i miss home
but after one month i already fall in love with the life here
go to class with yurry every morning
have dinner with yurry n liyi every night
everyday were so happy
full of joy
full with laughters

i already cant think bot graduating
i dun feel like graduating and go to work
the life of study is incredible!!

daddy, i miss u.. BADLY!!

it has been 11 years ago since i last seen u

many people already forgot how you looked like

but to me, i never forgot.

never. never.. 

even though you left when  was only 9

i try not to think of you

but now when i am here in kampar

and watching a real show named where are we going, daddy.

i realised how warm it is when they have a father

how alone i am when i do not have 

they are so sweet when they are together

their fathers being so nice to them 

and i dont have any of these memories with me

im jealous

i wanted someone to hug me like them

i dont care i am already 20

i wan to be a child n cuddle on daddy

daddy, i miss you

i miss you

i miss you

i want you to come back to me..

i want you

i need you..

today....

today, is a great day.. 

the first class is ok, but a bit boring

the lecturer named alicia, and she is a pretty lady.. hoo~~~

the second class was taught by a male lecturer.

his class was super bored. wish he is not lecturing on important subject..

the funniest part of today is when i was having a quiz in the lecture class today

i didnt know how to do the questions given

so i asked yurry who sat beside me

n yurry asked snow who sat next to her

so we started discussing

where the whole class do the quiz quietly

and i pretended to be concentrating on the quiz whenever the lecturer glimpsed at us

so we are like forever discussing

and the lecturer do not know who is talking

and we were laughing like mad after the quiz

we told yurry something that i kept to myself for so so so long

which i never even told anybody on earth

i told the sad feelings were gone after so long

but i still feel sad when i say it out loud

now i realized what kind of person i am

my hurts in the heart are not fully healed

just that i can forget it

when i touch it , it still hurts

Uni LiFe

studied in UTAR for about a month ed..
from the beginning when i eat alone, walk alone, travel from class to class alone
to now someone is here to be with me almost all the time
we go to class together
we have almost every meal
we play the same social game named imvu
we even agreed to stick together for assignment groups next sem
i am so so so glad to have someone to be with me
so i am no longer alone
and no longer b lost whenever i am confuse
and i did have fun with them
i love my uni life

assignments and tests and exams are overwhelming
but i am still not in my full study mood
test is coming after 3 hours
but i am here to blog
maybe you will say i already have the confident to score this test
but i cant be certain before i see the paper right?
so what do i do now is,
stop blogging
and go to study now

bye..
i love uni life
if can get a bf will e even better!!