I wanted to get out!!

If there is a chance I can choose whether I will live the life I had now.
I will choose NO. No second thought. Not even need to consider,
Why would I say yes? Why should I say yes to this sucks life?

Doubtlessly, there were some beautiful amazing things had happened in my life.
But there are more sad and hateful things and people were around me.
And the sad part made most of my life.
How can I love my life?

My dad passed away when I was 9. I know he loves my mum ,but they fought a lot.
Sometimes I think how will I be if my dad didn't pass away that early??
I will be like my cousins.
Having branded stuffs, got money to use even though not very rich
But will my parents get divorced?
And if they did, who will I be?
No idea.

I am raised up by my aunt. Her family was a happy family when she was rich. But no longer.
Because of money, they quarrel and fight. From time to time.
This problem solved and another problem raised.
Problems come nonstop.
Now I know And believe
Money is the root of all evil...

My mum, she is good, kind. But her ability is low too.
The money she earned is just enough for herself.
Money is the basic of life,
How can I rely fully on her?

Myself, a failure too.
Having eyesight problem.
Optic nerve cells are weak.
So my eyesight I worse than the normal people.
I can't have my driving license.
Not a big problem. But a big trouble.
My hearing is also not as good.
And I suspect there is something wrong with my brain.
I forget things fast.

So, after all of these, I don't want to be me if I do have a choice.
But I don't have a choice, so
I can only
Only live with these,